felix's daily adventures

OMG… I’m freaking out… I’m stressed…. Holy shit.

I swear that boy’ll be the death of me yet…

…and we were dreaming. There are moments when I know it and the world revolves around us. And we’re keeping it, keep it all going, this delicate balance.  (Straylight Run-Existentialism On Prom Night)

But faith and hope are two completely different things. I love this picture.

I know things will get better in my heart, I just can’t believe it right now. Sorry.

That song is amazingly amazing though. And while listening to it it made me feel good. And of course I was listening to it right when I opened this page. So that picture made me kinda meh but that song made me happier. Yeah, I’m a fruit cake.

My dad’s mad at my mom for not getting me face stuff and cappuccino and told me he’d get me a coffee maker for Christmas. I’m excited. =]

*Just try to forget the past…

Let’s start with yesterday…. Actually let’s forget yesterday ever happened shall we?

Let’s start with last night. I went to Laura’s for the night. I got to see Bailey again and play with Cleo who is just the most adorable puppy in the world. Then we played with things. Chilled out and talked. Actually, about 10:00 till almost 1 was us just sitting and talking.

Then we got up and went for a walk through the woods and fields. Lots of prickly things.

So then I came home and Jason came over. That was good in retrospect… I say that not because I was upset when he left or something. Quite the contrary. Just now I’m begining to not feel so joyous. And I’m kinda ghskj about not being able to just COMPLETELY redo my room RIGHT NOW or get my whole music library. It’s bothering me.

So I think I should make a list of what I’ve been listening to lately… Cause it’s cool.

-Ima Robot

-!!! (pronounced chkchkchk)

-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

-Saosin

-Death from Above 1979

-Teddy Geiger

-Head Automatica

-The Dresden Dolls

-Straylight Run

-Lustra

-Porcelain and the Tramps

-The Matches

-The Pixies

-Jet

-Pepper

-Hedley

-Daphne Loves Derby

and on the local side The Brains, EGF, and Mr. Molotov… But what else local is there? I’m just in a local mood.

So about the *. Yeah well it involves something I saw, something my mom said, and something someone else said. And something I said. And just all the stuff that’s suddenly back in play. And something on myspace.

I’m gonna go clean my room and listen to Red Jumpsuit Apparatus more. Face Down is an amazing song. Really.

Oh yeah, I’m not allowed to get a job? What kinda bs is this?

I honestly oughta just start attending cyber school. Work almost all day, do school work for maybe an hour? Maybe two? I suppose it depends what kinda school I go to… If it does it by hours or work more… Anyways it’d be cool. I could graduate super early and be in college sooner. I’d love to be away from highschool drama.

I wonder how feasible that idea is…

I wish my mom had let me go to Milton Hershey. Then I could really get out of here when I go to college. But instead everyone’s gonna get out and leave me behind… That’s what it looks like. Well I don’t think. I’ll figure something out. No way in hell am I watching all the rich and super smart kids get out (cause that’s what you are around here… super rich, super smart, or super unpopular… or me… well I’m smart but I’m the smart kid who’s GPA leaves something to be desired).

Whatever. Something in me wants out so bad right now. I’m really going now though.