Holy begeezus.
My music is amazing. My not laptop computer (of whose better name I can’t quite remember) has a spastic hard drive.
Things aren’t looking good in iPod land.
In the words of Karen, just shoot me.
Archive for November 26, 2006
It’s 3:10 am. And why am I awake again? Don’t ask…
I’m exceptionally miserable… I mean much more than usual… Like right when I thought things were okay… They’re not. Maybe they never will be. And I can’t keep doing this. I was so happy damnit. Everything was fine and I was in a great mood and everything was good. And now just look at things… Why is this all such a mess? I seriously can’t do this… It’s tearing me apart inside. And let that sound emo. I don’t really care how anything sounds right now.
It’s Sunday. This break has been a disaster… So much for… everything.
Why was the happiest time I had this break the time when I was half an hour drive away and couldn’t talk to him? It’s not supposed to be like that…
And everything just got worse…
what the hell am I supposed to do anyways? Rearrange everything to see him?
Seriously, if he’s busy he gets mad at me for trying to see him… But as soon as I go anywhere he wants to know when I’ll be home and what not… The same as I ask of him… So wtf?
I’ve been HAPPY about seeing Carrie and Chelsea and Laura the past chunk of time. I mean… One was out of need to be away from here…
I don’t really know what to say about anything. I can’t say much of anything without sounding emo, but hell why not? I’m depressed. So let me sound emo then.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.
OMGSH.
So seriously the bonfire was pretty cool. First me, Liz, Carrie and Michelle sat in a circle and sang stupid song. Then me and Carrie and Liz got belted together and stood there for an hour singing and rotating and got yelled at. Oh geeze that fun sucking woman. (Call me a bitch. I am.)
Ehm me and Carrie convinced Jason to make us hot dogs. Ehehe. Yay us! And uhm we went in the woods. Me and Carrie died some. And we all (Nate, Liz, me, Jason, Wes, Michelle and Carrie) took Carrie home and chilled in her house for a tad. I love Carrie’s house and her incredible pettable mother.
And man I looked so cute today. Oh rawr. And my PJ’s are sexyful. (God I’m in an amazing mood and so completely full of myself!)
So back to bonfire… I actually played guitar around people (that never happens because I honestly don’t think I’m very good). Tonight I was really good. I surprised me. I was thrilled by it. Accoustic guitars are easy to play now for some reason…
Hm… I burned my knees for the sake of playing a Pink Floyd song. It was worth it.
Spent the last like hour just laying around with Jason which I’m supposing was good as I haven’t seen him for like 3 days or something silly? Okay a little less than that. I exagerate a lot of times in my life. And can’t spell exaggerate. Two g’s? Oh I dunno.
Ahaha. G’s… And homies. Oh wow. I’m amazing.
There’s this kid on myspace that tells me I’m cute all the time. I like attention.
Wes tickled my leg. It was bizarre. And uhm… hm…
I dunno… I smell like burning wood and that’s gotta be like the best smell in the entire universe.
So… I should go like eat or do something? Beats Sarah. Ooh you wanna beat Sarah don’t you?
WTF self…
